I really hate this job.I thought it would be a challenging and fun job but instead,it was a demoralising one.I don't know what went wrong.Or is it the customers don't want to be interested? Some of them were fine and I appreciate their time for allowing me to talk to them.But some slammed the door, shouted at me to get lost,saying that they don't want even before I talk to them about myy purpose for coming.I don't mind being tired walking from door to door but what I want is to make the people feel interested about how they can save their electricity bill.Some of them felt that saving up to 30% is nothing.They didn't realised that they paid 30% more than they should for electricity bill monthly.Maybe I will quit 2 days later because some of the customers today said that it was a good deal and they were considering whether to apply for this service or not.I gave them my number and I hope they would call and have appointments with me.Whether they call or not,I feel that this job is not suited for me though it trains me to be a confident communicator.I am used to speaking to people that I don't know as long as I have a purpose in what I am saying.It will be my last day to work tomorrow.It's okay if I do not earn any money.I am eligible to receive the edusave bursary because my mum did not include her salary in the application form.I already had a stressful time during O Level and now I'm feeling stress again.I should relax,have fun with my friends, go for date ( but too bad she's working) blah,blah,blah.I'm not producing results after 2 days of working.I'm good at communicating but it's just that the people were not interested.I'm EMO right now.The only thing that can cure my heart is her.Now I know what business is like.If I were to venture into business,I will only choose to be an accountant, whose basic pay is above $3000.

My job as an advertiser is already confirmed.
What will I do? Here's the work:
Talk to residents and bosses of big firms
Encourage them to save on electricity is of no effort

Just install the PowerTune at your place
And you'll realise how much energy you can save.
I'm working not only to earn money but I want to encourage people to cut down on energy wastage. As you know, the electrical system that supplies electricity to our homes are not 100% efficient due to many factors such as irregular electricity loadings.However,the PowerTune would reduce or eliminate electrical inefficiencies that cleverly transforms and recycles "dirty" electricity into highly efficiency electricity. Would you want to save on energy and cut down your electricity bill? Just contact me and I'll explain further on how it works.The company will give me name cards which will be issued to my clients.But there will be a test related to this tomorrow and I will have to pass it.The boss will retrain me if I failed.I have made a few new friends there.

After that,I joined Nuqman,Nazreen,Zaki,Zul and Raja at Ngee Ann City.They were lookig for jobs and I was like the extra one.I had a tired day and I hope to do well tomorrow.The basic salary is about $1500 ( I heard from the people there) and that does not include the commission.I will be paid an extra $45 for each successful application. I can work for many months and even during school period next year because the boss will make a schedule for me and it's not a problem.

I'm so bored
Nothing better to do today
I'm looking forward
To work on the next day...

Went to Central this morning
Bought new tyre tubes for the wheels
My family went shopping
While they don't know how I feel

Playing PSP is fun
But PS3 is better
I know you're kind
It's just that I felt bitter

This is neither a poem
Nor a song
Isn't it is obvious?
I've been waiting for you for long

Since June that time
When I first saw you
That smile extended my revision time
Baby, it's true

However,I was distracted by your legs
Which kept shaking and banging
But it's okay to me
As long as you're focusing

Many of the songs I've heard remind me of you
Many of the songs I wrote are about my feelings
But none of them can make me happy
Except a kiss from you if you're willing

I know some people would fine this SUCKS
I admit that too but what to do?
I hope to have lots of lucks
But why I don't have guts to call you?

I went job hunting today.After I had breakfast with my mum,I met Zaki at Jurong East.I brought along Classified section of The Straits Times.We relaxed at Bugis for a while and went to National Library.At there,I contacted a few office and there is a job willing to take students.the two of us went to Clark Quay to have a job interview.The boss was fine.Zaki gave me no opportunity to talk.Whenever the boss ask questions,I tried to answer but he just talked.Damn &^$*8&.He knew that I was angry with him as I had told him straight to his face so it's okay to write about it here.We met Raja at Suntec City where we apllied for a job at Toys R Us.Then we went to Cineleisure to eat at Estella 77 where Fariss and Hanis are working.They really enjoy working there and it seems relaxing but they told me that the work is harder during peak hours.The Chicken Noodle Fariss 'cooked' was delicious.Then the three of us decided to apply for a job at the cinema.Zaki had to go then.Raja and I took MRT to Yew Tee and headed to the Chua Chu Kang Stadium to watch S-League match between SAFFC and Gombak. I saw Jeslyn at Yew Tee there. SAFFC scored twice early in the first half but Gombak played superbly well in the second half but the match ended in a 2-1 victory for SAFFC.I took MRT home.I will have to go to my grandparents' house tomorrow. The boss who interviewed me and Zaki called and he said that both of us are selected for his job.The problem is that my family will go for a two-week holiday to Phuket and I have not told the boss.JC will start on January and hence,I would only be able to work for a month.I'm still thinking about it.Not just it - I really miss her so badly.She won't go to CC again till JC starts.So boring... and lonely...

I went to Chau Chu Kang gym with Raja and Zaki this morning.Last night,I watch The Gameplan with Raja at Jurong Point.I was touched by what the actors said.I do not like the CCK gym because there are not many machines to work out and there were many people in there when we arrived.The girls there were not bad but I was dissatisfied with the lack of machines.We planned to go to swimming but we went to Zaki's house instead.It rained eventually.I used zaki's computer while the others played PS2.His mum was not at home.I only played a game with Raja which I won 4-2 but then,Zaki's mum called and we had to leave.Raja and I walked from Yew Tee to CCK Avenue 3.We talked about various issues concerning work,pre-U,family and girls.The heavy rain caused me to stay there longer.The three of us will be applying for a job at Toy's R Us at Suntec tomorrow.Raja had called the manager earlier on.I'm not desperate for money but I want to earn as much as I can to reimburse my bank balance. I had been asking my mum for money consecutively for the past few days.Tomorrow I'll ask my dad.My room is still in a mess with all my textbooks and notes which are longer used.There may be a match this Saturday against Traxion but it is not confirmed yet.I have to ensure that Phattzion are free on Saturday.Some of them are already working.

Another boring day.Mel woke me up at 6.58am when she sms-ed me about the JC admission thing.I cycled to my grandparents' house before noon.As always,I helped to clean their house,repaired some items and of course,tasted my grandma's cooking. I wasn't tired while doing those works.I went off from there at 4pm and cycled through the windy afternoon. The registration for the Provisional Pre-U One Adission Exercise will start tomorrow and I have not decide on my 12 choices.With L1R5 of 19 and L1R4 of 13, I have limited choices and I can forget about ACJC,NJC,AJC,SAJC,RJC,VJC,TJC,CJC and Hwa Chong.Even if I qualify for one of these JCs, I may not choose it as my first choice.I'll just have to make full use of the 12 choices. I would be most likely qualify for MI or Innova.I'm still considering now.My family on the other hand are booking a trip to Thailand right now.I hope to get into JJC.At the moment now,there are many thoughts on my mind - finding a job,forming a band, selecting a JC and more.

Such a tired day today.I woke up at 4.30am and cycled to Boon Lay Interchange at 5.30am.I waited for my friends for more than half an hour.Fariss,Kiong,Joey and I took the MRT to the Changi Airport for the departure of the twins to USA.Kiong slept for only 3 hours.At there,we met Clement,Hamizan,Raja and Hanis.They had their class chalets.We ate Burger King first before meeting the twins at the departure hall.We talked to them for a while and then they went off.They will come back 11 days later.After their departure,we didn't know where to go.I told them to go to Peninsula Plaza.Hanis,Clement and Joey applied for a job at Spenelli Cafe.We looked and shoped in there.The cheapest electric guitar I found there is $185.After that, we walked all the way to Bugis Junction.I was attracted by some of the clothings.Joey and I planned to buy those clothings one day as the prices are cheap.By then,many of my friends had gone home except Fariss and Joey.Asyraff joined us a while later.We went to Cineleisure to shop as well.Fariss works there as a waiter.I was so tired and had a backache.Nazreen and Nuqman also joined us there.We went to Paragon and Wisma Atria.Joey and I had given up 2 hours later and both of us decided to go home.I cycled home from the interchange and as I was about to reach home,I saw my family coming out of my house to go shopping.I rested at home.At 8pm just now,I met Mel and Daphne at CC to collect the JC admission stuff.Mel will be going overseas as well and she wants me to help her register for the admission.I bought some food from the bazaar after that and ate at home.Damn tired...

Such a boring day.In the morning, I had to tidy the house,wash fans,fold the clothes,vacuum the floor and so on.I only had egg and bread to eat for breakfast.My friends from 4F are having a chalet and thus,we didn't play soccer.Rachel and Rebecca will be setting off to USA on Saturday and there will be less 'fun' without them.I haven't contact Zaki,Nazreen and Nuqman for quite some time.Even my PSP can't make me happy for long.I need to have some activities to enjoy.Some of my Phattzion gang are looking for jobs.There will be approximately 12 weeks of holidays before the release of O Level results.

I went to Kiong's house at 2.30pm just now.He needed help with his PSP.Last night,he kept sms-ing me to ask about the copying of games into the PSP.He had to format his memory card and in the end,he could copy the games.I went to Pioneer Mall at 5pm to buy food before going home.I will have to go to school tomorrow for the JC admission briefing.So lonely...

At noon today,Joey and I followed Kiong to buy his PSP at West Coast.We were supposed to buy it yesterday but we played street soccer instead.I was stupid enough to injure my foot.My friends laughed when that incident happened.Kiong selected pink colour (don't ask me why) which costed $260.He also bought FIFA 08 for $64.We tried to bargain but in the end, Kiong paid in full amount. Then, we ate at Ayer Rajah foodcourt nearby.The PSP standard pack which he bought does not include memory card and so,we decided to go to IMM to search for the cheapest 4GB memory card.We did found that memory card which costs $99.Hamizan and Raja,who went to the ICA building in the morning,joined us at IMM.We roamed around there to look out for attractive clothings

Here I am at Kiong's house.O Level is over.The POA paper 1 I did this morning was very easy.Last night, I kept doing the POA study pack and was well-prepared.My mum accompanied my siblings to school to collect their results.My younger brother got first in class and I am impressed with his 98% score for Mathematics.He surely deserved the PSP. I'm feeling bored right now.Kiong is waiting for the person to repair his computer.Fariss,asyraff and I will follow him to West Coast to buy PSP for himself.Life will be boring without PS3.I'm also updating my Friendster account.My sister sent me a comment that made me look down but I replied her in a optimistic manner. This Friday, I will have to go to school again for a briefing on the JC admission.I'm still not sure if I want to work.I don't know what to do! So lonely...

My gang went for Hari Raya visits to our friends' houses yesterday.We had a good time indeed,especially for Zaffan,who was elated after finding out the name of Fariss' mum.Fariss was speechless! We also went to Mdm Siti Hajar's house and I ate a lot.My house was the last one and we took a group photo outside my house.All of them (including me) looked nice in baju kurung!

About today, my brother and I got PSP each!

First, we went to Pioneer Mall but the price seems dissatisfying.Then we headed to West Coast.The price is much cheaper! we took a long time at that shop.My dad rocks! Tomorrow, I'll go to the gym with Hamizan and then continue with my revision for the remaining paper.

I just had the Social Studies paper. I knew that the unexpected topics would come out. Yes indeed! Mrs Baljit told us that Venice would not come out but it did. I did not even touch that topic. Many other students also did not read up on Venice. The source-based question is about the nuclear issue on India and Pakistan, which is a decontextualise source. The structured-essay questions are on population,sustaining development and Venice.I did on sustaining development and I included current issues.I emphasised so much the sec 3 topics such as Sri Lanka,Diplomacy an Deterrence and Industrial Development. Fortunately I read up on Sustaining Development this morning.I faced difficulties in trying to link my arguments back to the question.A lot of my friends complained about Mrs Baljit's predictions but I won't blame her.It's over and I had done my best.

My gang ate at Kenny's cafe after that.The 4F students will have their last paper tomorrow while the rest will have to wait till next week.Some are already planning what to do during the holidays. Last Saturday,my dad told me that he is interested in buying Playstation 3.He said that the graphic is so damn nice and real. He's such a game addict. I understand that because he did not have this type of game when he was young.I can't wait to buy FIFA 08.After this , I'll relax at Kiong's house.I have no papers for the rest of this week but I'll still do my revision.

Chelsea is currently trailing Arsenal and Man Utd by 3 points.Chelsea will catch up soon!

4 more papers to go - Social Studies, Physics and Chemistry Paper 1 and POA paper 1. It has been a smooth journey throughout the O Level so far. I was generally satisfied with all the papers though I felt I could do less mistakes. Physics was fine as I expected. I did a question which I did not focus a lot on for History just now. I really want to score as high as I can for SS.I knew that I would get zero for the 8 marks question for Geography.I was damn stupid then. The question asked me to refer to the PARAGRAPHS but I referred to the PHOTOGRAPHS instead. I'll make sure that I know the content well for SS so that my Combined Humans will not be disappointing.I will relax at Kiong's house tomorrow to watch Arsenal vs Man Utd. I want Man Utd to lose! Then, it will be a happy Sunday for me.

O Level written examination has begun and my friends who are taking A Maths are having a much stressful time at the moment.They had A Maths today and will have paper 2 tomorrow.As for me, my first paper is Chemistry Paper 2. I failed Chemistry during Prelim exam but based on my through and repetitive revision, I believe that passing should not be a problem and if possible, I'm targeting for Distinction.I will just have to be meticulous when reading the questions this time round.For the past two weeks, I have been revising for at least 7 hours per day. Since my FIFA 07 disc is with my friend now, I have no reason to play PS2 at the moment. My dad will surely buy FIFA 08 after O Levels and my parents have agreed to buy me electric guitar as well. Put my priorities right at the time being.

Today, I did my revision at the Jurong East library with Zul and Raja. I did a lot of practices for Maths and then revised History and Geography.I spent more than $20 for food today! During breakfast, I ate breakfast set at Banquet before meeting them. During lunch at 2.30pm,we ate at the Korean restaurant called Zing-Do till my stomach was full.I slept for a while after that at the library.After we had finished studying at 7pm, we ate at Long John Silver.Damn, I'm gonna be fat like that guy but I will always exercise. I'm tied to the testing of wills.

ALL THE BEST TO THOSE TAKING O LEVELS!

especially her =D

... you guys are my competitors but I need to overcome myself first.NO FEAR DUDE!

I'm at Joey's house again.I had Chemistry mock exam just now at 9am.The paper was easy but unfortunately, I made many careless mistakes. What a waste of effort.I had spent so much time revising for chem and had mastered msot of the content but the lack of attention to the questions caused me to pull my hair.After that, my gang went to eat at Pearl Delight.Zaki,Hamizan and I are here at Joey's house.I played a game with Joey but was thrashed 4-0, simply because I had not been playing for a long time.zaki defeated me 1-0.Well, I don't mind about that.O Level Chemistry will start next Wednesday. Phattzion will receive the W-League trophies this Friday.Yesterday, I called Mr Ramesh to confirm the date. I will study later at CC. I still have not recovered by my running nose and cough.I want to get well before next week.I went to the clinics for the past few days but they were closed.

It is the second day of Hari Raya and many Muslims family were having a great time visiting friends and relatives. I'm the only lonely one who did not enjoy today. My relatives from KL came and they followed my family around the island to visit the other relatives.I slept at 5am this morning. I spent the whole morning watching videos on YouTube and also finding the latest songs of my taste. I woke up at 11.30am and then went to revise on Chemistry at the CC without having breakfast.There will be a Chemistry mock exam this Wednesday and we will do this year's O Level June paper. Unfortunately, I had running nose and I felt dizzy throughout my revision. After an hour of revision, I decided to eat at KFC but I had no appetite. A while later,Melissa came to study there as usual. She did History essays while I was eating. I continued with my revision later on. The mucus in my nose just could not stop flowing down and it irritated me. Her presence cheered me up but I was frustrated with the flu. She looked nice today. I stopped at 5pm and wanted to go to the clinic but it was closed. At home, I watched TV for a while.Until now, my family have not returned home. It's good that nobody is at home as I could sing out the songs I had composed using the Audacity software. I was surprised that my voice sounded nice when I played back the recording. I think my singing can match Aliff Aziz or even better. I hope that my relatives do remember me and pass green packets to me though I did not visit them.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA!






Moments of forgiveness

My sister with her dyed hair.

I would like to wish all my Muslim friends Selamat Hari Raya. I apologise for my wrongdoings and hope to make things better. My collection for today was quite okay.I received around $70. I did not realised that my family went to Geylang last night and came back this morning at 5am. My mum and sisters took a very long time to dress themselves. After that, we apologised to one another and headed to my grandparents' house. I ate alot today. My relatives said that I've grown so tall and they said that I looked like my father. as always, like father like son. At night, I watched the Malaysian news, criticising MM Lee Kuan Yew. The Malaysian politics were discussing whether Singapore could once again merge with Malaysia. I am so tired now. My cousins from KL will be coming to Singapore tomorrow. It has been a long time since I met them. O Level written examinations will start two weeks from now and will end exactly one month from now.

Physics and Chemistry O Level practicals are over and I knew the mistakes I had done. I am more concerned about Chemistry. My burette reading was 23.75 cm cube but the model reading was 25.1, which was far from my results. Damn. This time, my QA was alright- I wrote everything I observed and my conclusions were correct. I really hope to get 60 out of 80 for chemistry paper 2 in order to get at most A2. I'm getting better in Physics. Getting A1 for POA should not be a problem. I got 55 out of 70 for the POA mock exam. I may not have gotten a distinction for Maths but since mid-year,I had been getting B3. I'll continue to practise more and avoid careless mistakes next time. Those mistakes costed me 7 marks for Prelim. The next O level paper for me is Chemistry, which will be held on 25 Oct.A maths students will begin on the 22nd. English and Maths are my priority.

By the way, the time is nearly 3 in the morning. I spent the time from midnight till now to tidy and house,especially my messy room, for Hari Raya. I'm going to celebrate it only on the first day. Last night, Fariss, Zufaidi,Hamizan,Hanis,Syahiran and I broke fast at KFC. Then we set up a rocket using fire crackers. Fun. We went to buy more and went to Kiong's house to 'manufacture' the rockets. I took a video of our acts. After that, we played FIFA 08 at Kiong's house.I reached home at about 11.30pm.At noon today, the Phattzion gang will pray at Al-firdaus mosque.It will be the last day for the Muslims to fast. On 17 Oct, Phattzion will come back to school to receive our W-League trophies. Despite the mistakes, I've made during practicals, I'll just have to stop whining and focus on the next papers. they're just a few percentage. My level position for prelim is 17.Let's see if I could get top 5 for O level. I believe in myself.

I have just came back from Kok Kiong's house after watching the Premier League. Man Utd thrashed Wigan 4-0. On Friday evening, my Muslim gang went to a mosque at Bukit Timah. We broke the fast there and the food was great.After prayer,we went to Clementi to have supper at 11pm. We saw our rugby coach Peerose who was with his wife.I reached home 20 minutes past midnight. The next morning, I had to send and fetch my siblings to the religious class. During the afternoon, I revised for Geography. then I went to Kiong's house before Raja,Fariss,Hanis,Hamizan and Syahiran arrive. Syahiran took a video when Hanis was urinating in the toilet through the window. We all laughed. A few months ago, Zaffan was passing motion at the same toilet and Kiong opened the unlock door to let people watch Zaffan doing his business. Clement also received the same fate when Syahiran took a video of him bathing in the same toilet. Haha! The Physics practical will be held this Tuesday and Chemistry on Thursday. I really can't wait for O level to start.

Anyway, 'fragile' is not a suitable adjective to describe organ. Where on Earth did she learn that expression? As for the other readers, thanks for lifting my spirit high! You guys really 'fixed' my broken heart!

Guess where I am now? I'm at Joey's house.At 7.30, my mum met Ms Chen to collect my prelim results.She was delighted and hope that I will continue to keep up the good work.My class position is 4th and rank 17 among the whole level.Then I had English paper 2 mock exam. I was distracted by the noise made by the students during rev-up. I know that they were enthusiastic but I managed to focus. After that, all the sec 4E and 5N students went to the hall for a briefing. Mdm Fauziah reminded us that all papers are compulsory. Many students did not sit for the social studies paper yesterday especially Zaki who initially told me that he wanted to sit for the paper but in the end he did not.I'm not sure that he was prepared for that. Then I walked with Zaki and Joey to Joey's house and played PS2 until now.I really needed a break.I lost all the games against Joey and Zaki.Later I'll revise for Physics.

I would like to thank Jia Yi for her encouragement and for as Zawani and Rebecca, I have taken many photos with many other girls. So it's not a big deal.