Every morning I feel the breeze
When packed buses passed me
Hoping to be an earlybird
It wasn't turned out to be

Every morning I hear the same thing
Sedia, senang diri
But it feels alright
Coz I'm the boy kilat

In the office, I stare at nothing
On the computer screen
Pretending to work
There's no productivity

During lunch break, I didn't have a break
Coz there's no kit kat
And I'm fasting
So I draw a picture of my cat

I was young but I wasn't naive
I watched helpless as you turned around to leave
And still I have the pain I have to carry
A past so deep that even you could not bury if you tried

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

I would fall asleep
Only in hopes of dreaming
That everything would be like is was before
But nights like this it seems are slowly fleeting
They disappear as reality is crashing to the floor

After all this time
I never thought we'd be here
Never thought we'd be here
When my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me died when I let you go

After all this time
Would you ever wanna leave it
Maybe you could not believe it
That my love for you was blind
But I couldn't make you see it
Couldn't make you see it
That I loved you more than you will ever know
A part of me died when I let you go
And I loved you more than you'll ever know
A part of me dies when I let you go


....Happy 18th =D

Arrggghhh... fail again.
Total 46 demerit points, mostly occured inside the BBDC Circuit which I didn't practise.
Driving on the road was okay as checking blindspots and mirrors are no longer a problem.
Striked the kerb twice after vertical parking and that's 20 points awarded.
But I feel okay failing this time round given that those mistakes are genuine ones instead of repeated ones, bar the striking of kerb.
And my mum recently told me that the Chevrolet has faulty clutch.
So can't drive it at the moment.
Thus, no hard feeling for me.
Try again next time!
But at least there is something to put a smile on my face after that.
That is my School Graduation Cert. which I collected after the test.

Gonna focus on driving this weekend.
Booked practical lessons today and tomorrow.
The test will be on Monday and I also applied for leave that day.
$300+ gonna be spent for this.
I won't neglect those safety aspects again.
And of course, avoid immediate failure.
I really hope to pass this one.

Not much entertainment for me this weekend.
Spent Saturday morning at BBDC,renewing my Provisional Driving License.
The waiting was unbearable, in which many foreigners converted their licenses.
Saw the tester who failed me during my first test.
I think he recognised me but I didn't stare for long.
Quite a number of girls wore mini skirt or shorts while waiting for their TP test.
Maybe that's a formula to help them pass.
Had driving lesson today after a month without it.
Next test date is on 16 August.
I'm gonna practise relentlessly and hopefully pass it this time round.
Anyway,fasting month is coming!
That means an additional meal allowance of $80 will be added to my allowance.
Gonna save next month's salary as much as I could.
Anything just eat at home.

Footdrill competition was held today.
Due to wet weather, it was held in the hall.
I,along with 2 seniors,became neutral judges - just tabulating the scores.
It was a quite a relaxing morning watching the platoons marched past us and at the same time enjoy the refreshment that were catered mainly to the Officers.
Charlie won...again. Well I was also impressed by their sharp movements and coordination.
After the competition, the 3 of us were invited to have refreshment, this time at te BRTC Mess.
OMG that place is awesome!
The atmosphere is so relaxing like a in a bar.
Since there were Sirs and Enciks there, I was shy and didn't take more food, though they insisted me to take more.
I kept saying "It's okay, I'm full"
Nevermind, it was my first time. I'll be a neutral judge for the next few upcoming footdrill competitions again.
I'll get used to it.
Oh my, I love my job!
- Provost Admin

I hate booking out. People will start lighting up their cigarettes.
They would surround the bus stop and the smoke somehow ventilate to my direction.
And waiting for bus 172 is always a chore.
Always packed with people from Home team academy as well as CD personnel.
Knowing that it is a peak hour, SMRT should deploy the long bendy buses.
Furthermore, bus fare has increased. Go to hell with distance fare.
Finding a seat in the bus is as rare as once in a blue moon.
I wish I passed my first driving test.REGRET.
Speaking of which, my PDL will expire on 24th July.
And I'll have to fork out money again just to renew it.
Well even if I have license now, there is still another problem.
My parents won't allow me to drive Toyota Wish but the red-plated off-peak Chevrolet instead.
That means i'll have to reach camp by 7am and exit after 7pm.
Maybe I shall get Class 2 license as well.
Dad would agree but Mom wouldn't.
I anything as long as I'm not the one paying for the lessons.
Well, as for now, just endure and adapt.

I HAVE A NEW CRUSH...



on this phone...

Had an enjoyable weekend. Played soccer at Fico after work with my Provost seniors on Friday night. Slept at 2am and woke up at 6am on Saturday for Phattzion match against Commonwealth alumni. Lost 5-4 but the good thing is we only had to pay for the referee and not the field. After that, Hamizan forced me to go to town to help out his stall at a flea market. Had headache throughout the day as the market is very crowded. Didn't get a chance to eat until 7pm, when Naz, Ham, Syah and I ate at Estella 77. Took 174 all the way from Orchard to Boon Lay.
But that's not all.
I stayed awake as Syahiran and Zufaidi came to my house to watch soccer at 1am on Sunday. I was wearing Germany's jersey as they beat Uruguay 3-2.
Slept at 5am. Woke up at 10am. Spent the day watching movies. Went to shop for clothings at night.
Gonna sleep early to watch the Final tmr.
Viva Espana! von Dutch

Bloody hell Germany lost.
I was planning to buy Germany's away kit when I get my pay tmr.
But then, maybe not.
Thanks to Paul the Octopus who predicted a Spain win.
I almost resorted to betting, influenced by my Encik and seniors, who spent the whole day in office talking about the World Cup.
Of course, a good guy like me won't do that.
It has been 2 weeks since the last time I had to do half-right.
I have not been exercising enough. Only trained in the gym after work.
And my weight is reaching 70kg.
And Phattzion will be having a game this Saturday morning.
When was the last time I kicked a football? I don't remember.

I'm gonna spend the rest of NS life sitting in office and do paperwork.
MY work is confidential and it is not demanding.
I think I spent most of the time doing nothing.
Quite boring but hey, I don't get to suffer during NS =D


Gonna spend the weekends in Johor.
Can watch World Cup matches at the makan places.
And also practise my driving.
Director's Parade on Monday

Got to know my posting this morning.
Provost Administrator!
I feel lucky and couldn't ask for a better job.
Working hour is 8am to 5.30pm and sit in the office.
Plus skill allowance on top of rank pay.
But there are more things to come. I don't know.
Really proud to wear the Provost uniform =D
Especially when walking in front of Recruits!

End of Provost training course!
As usual, once again, I've won the BEST TRAINEE. hehe
I'm posted to the Detention Barrack, most likely be the administrator.
Oh my, I love the No. 3 uniform!
So easy to iron, don't have to fold the sleeves and it really looks grand.
I guess I'm proud to be a Provost
(as for now)
And seriously, I'll make sure I go for haircut.
Brasil and Portugal drew 0-0.
Now waiting for Spain vs Chile.
And I'm now considering whether to sign up for data plan.
Or just get iPod touch?
Need some entertainment if there's nothing to do at work. hehe

Tomorrow will be the last day of Provost training course!
Will get our NUMBER 3 uniforms, lanyard , baton and stuffs and handcuff? Nvm
Really excited to wear it. It feels special.
I might be posted to the detention barrack as Provost administrator.
I'll confirm with that tmr.
Gonna miss my friends who will be posted to other divisions!
Anyway, there's supposed to be School of Design and Environment camp from this Friday till Monday but I don't think I can make it.
Gonna have a haircut soon! My fringe is not growing but my sides look like Wolverine if I wear the beret.
Really look like mangkok now but I don't behave like one.
I've missed quite a number of World Cup matches on weekdays.
Usually I would fall asleep around 11pm.
What to do?
Where got time?

Failed TP test... =(
It's okay. I feel normal.
Most of my friends who took private failed on their first attempt.
My dad had to take twice. My mom passed after 4 attempts.
$206 for administration fee gone and have to wait till 16 August for re-test.
Now, I'll just move on and focus on Provost trainings and tests.
Since I passed my IPPT earlier on, I'll be given additional $100 skill allowance every month if I pass the course =)

Traffic Police Driving test and Provost test this week!
I'm really tied to the testing of wills.
One of my prayers have been answered when I got the NUS letter last night.
My appeal is successful. At least now my uncertainties are lessened.
Project and Facilities Management is the course (though I don't really know much about it)
I could still remember those cocked up moments during the interview last Monday but somehow the decision goes my way.
As for the driving test tomorrow, I'll have to report at 7am.
Had practical lesson yesterday and it was fine as per usual.
Relax, forget the world and drive safely and avoid making mistakes.
Any mistake or violation of safety rules will lead to demerit points.
I really hope that I could pass on my first attempt.
Do it once and do it well!
But I still have to report to camp after the test.
This week shall be the last week of Provost training before we post out.
May God bless me.
Amin.


Chevrolet Aveo, here I come!

I hope you know...

Going for Project and Facilities Management interview tomorrow.
It will take 10 mins or so...
I did check out on its website and be mentally prepared for it.
Now the problem is what clothes to wear tmr.
And it will be a hectic morning as I'll have to report to camp first before moving off to NUS.
I must learn how to calm myself down now.
Anyway, NS allowance has arrived but half of it had been spent on contact lenses.
My parents are still giving me weekly allowances though and they are paying my driving lessons and handphone bill.
How spoilt I am but at least I do my part of doing housework, since I got to book out every day.
Looking forward to the 2nd week of Provost training!

COURAGE, DISCIPLINE and HONOUR...
well, that's the motto of Provost.
The course has been fine and fun for me.
I've learnt how to handle aggressive person and scored 90% for that test =D
Most likely I'll be posted to the detention barrack.
NUS called me yesterday to inform me that I'm invited for an interview for Project and Facilities Management, but it will be held on Monday and will have to miss part of Provost lesson.
Hopefully the interview would go well and my appeal would be accepted
I also will have to miss part of the following Monday lesson due to the Traffic Police test.
I'll make sure I'll do it once and do it well.
That Chevrolet is waiting for me...
(but that car is an off-peak car though)
Public transport is still the best

I'M POSTED To THE PROVOST UNIT!
Guard duty for the rest of my NS life.
3 weeks of training and I'll be wearing that no.3 uniform!